Mortality reality rings loud and clear when you least expect it.
Moments that grab our attention can be a wake-up call. I call them life’s alarm clock. Tick Tock.
Who would think a summer shoe sale would make me pause? An end of season sale is the perfect time to buy for the next year, unless there is a real chance that you might not be on this earth the next time summer arrives. Then the deal isn’t a bargain. There I was all excited to go buy shoes until my potential mortality reality hit me between the eyes. I slowly put all the shoes back on the rack except one pair of pink sandals. I felt like I had to wager at least ten bucks on the bet that I would return to walk in this season’s shoes again.
Sometimes I just want to stop the clock and hold on to the moment. I find myself holding my breath. It feels like I am trying to protect myself from the reality that I have something in my body that is trying to kill me. These stupid breast cancer tumors are working constantly to steal my life …to rob me of my future and all its new shoes!!!
Battling cancer can be a constant reminder to appreciate time, seize the day and make it count. This battle requires me to believe in myself and my future by making memories with people that are close to my heart, saying what needs to be said, living with no regrets and buying shoes even when it may not be a practical purchase.
Several times a day I have to practice breathing. I force myself to be still and think happy thoughts. Whatever I focus on for just a few seconds is deeply valued. Life is precious. Holding my breath won’t stop cancer but slowing down to breathe in my surroundings is a healthy solution that I suggest. Breathing while appreciating helps to battle all kinds of “cancers”. Try it! Tick Tock!